6 Years ago this was me and my boyfriend William. 6 years later Im here at 2am crying because I never get to have another conversation with him. I don’t get to see him grow old with me and watch what we become together because he committed suicide 5 1/2 years ago March 17, 2008…our senior year of high school.
No one can imagine the pain suicide causes the survivors until you are one, then you’d do about anything to make it go away except the one thing that caused it all in the first place. Once you know what it can do to the people around you you swear that is never an option for you. The hole he left I believe is forever there though I believe I have done a pretty good job coping with no guide as to how. Losing your Best Friend at such a young age in such a tragic way was a pretty good wake up call. It says… ‘Enjoy what you have now cause at any moment it may be taken away!’
Got it life…thanks for the advice.
I recently started doing the Mary Kay thing, mostly because everything else in my life was changing at the time so why not add in something positive and fun? It turns out, its a lot of work if you want to make anything out of it. So far I haven’t found any motivation to talk to strangers about face care…
So I go to my second meeting last night, and one of the top ladies (I’m assuming the pink Caddy in the parking lo was hers) did a workshop about the personality types D I C S and I actually learned a lot. Even after she gave many examples of each type, I still couldnt decide which one was most dominate in me. The D in me needs to ‘drive the car’, the S wants to take care of the people I care about most, the I wants to sing and dance in the car no matter who’s watching, and the C needs a solid plan. Each characteristic has its ‘good’ and ‘bad’ but after listening to her speech about how she had to bring out the DOER-D when her hubby lost a large income so her Mary Kay business took off and now is driving a pretty pink car. That was when I realized I can be whatever letter I want to be and a little more D wouldn’t hurt, they are the go getters, the ones that MAKE things happen instead of just waiting around.
I know I have the capability of getting thru school on time and finding a way to financially be stable while doing something I love.
From today I am going to make it a goal to make my dreams come true.
It turns out I had this blog from a college class a few years ago…obviously I didn’t do much. So far I’m having an issue navigating to where I want so I guess I will play around for a bit this afternoon and figure it out! Can’t spend too much time tho, it’s a beautiful day outside!
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